I feel so lost. I don’t know how to get myself back. Over the past few years, i have changed so much. I have become person that I do not like. I don’t recognise myself anymore. When I think back to the me that existed just 6 years ago; the me about to start university …
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A new wave of optimism
Life’s gotten pretty shite over the past couple of weeks. It´s been hard to get my shit together. Living with a mental disorder is hardwork, of course it is – but it´s time to stop making excuses and get my head into a good place. To do this, I have made some promises to myself. …
Generalised Anxiety Disorder
Anxiety is a bitch. It’s a rat. It’s poison. Everyone feels different levels of anxiety. It could be exam stress, work stress, or something more personal. But everyone experiences anxiety at different levels. Some people are quite easy going and can dismiss their anxious tendencies with a ‘be rate’ comment. I am not one of …
I messed up…
My readers will know that I’m currently on a quest for sobriety. Well last night, I let myself down. Whilst on holiday in Benidorm (not the best place to come to when trying not to drink) I had several glasses of Pinot Grigio. I was stressed I was anxious – I was sad. They say …
My mental health heroes
Growing up, I did not feel as though mental illness was portrayed particularly well in the media; if, it was talked about at all. As a youngster, the only affiliations with mental health I could relate to was when an Eastenders character was diagnosed with schizophrenia and celebrity-endsored versions of OCD which glorified neatly-stacked pantry …
A quest for sobriety
I’ve always had a rocky relationship with the old hooch. As a bright-eyed, freshly faced 18 year old, alcohol was my friend. It gave me a shield to hide all of my insecurities. When this quiet, shy boy would turn up at university pre-drinks parties or family do’s, it only took a couple of pints …
CBT: Session One*
The therapist’s waiting room is bold and loud; the walls are painted a garish yellow and the floors covered with dull industrial carpet. I sink into a warm, comfortable armchair and listen to the undertones of Liam Gallagher as Oasis plays from a muffled speaker on the wall. My leg is shaking. I am nervous. …
A journey in mental health
Since the age of about twelve, I have been crippled by intrusive thoughts that enter my brain. They set up camp, uninvited without so much as a subtle introduction or a gradual move-in and have now been there for over 10 years. Due to these unwanted parasites, I have always been quite an anxious person; …
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Talking Heads 